Before I started blogging, I didn’t really follow blogs. I would read them, but not really follow them as such.
When I started my blogging journey that changed.
But one I follow avidly is Edenland. I first came across Eden earlier this year. Her blog is dark, melancholic, with flashes of hope and light. Just what I need to read in my moments of extreme depression.
She has been struggling of late. Her brother took his own life in October last year. It has been an unequivocal year of hell for her.
To honour his memory, Eden decided to launch the International Lip Syncing Awards. You can read about that here.
I saw the post late last night.
I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it.
Her journey has touched me so much. I have felt a lot less alone and in those times when sometimes I have wanted to die, when life has seemed so hard, I have read something she has written and the thought leaves me for another day. Thankfully, those times are not frequent and I am finding through my blogging journey that they are becoming even less.
And so I wanted to honour her. I wanted to honour Cameron, her brother. I wanted to honour all of those people who think that life isn’t worth continuing, who find life such a struggle, for whom life has let them down. And I also wanted to honour those who have experienced the loss of a loved one.
And so I did this:
I chose this song because it was our anthem growing up. My mom and her sister would sing this song and us girls would sing along with them. It became our mantra and it is now the anthem for our daughter. I pray she passes it on.
I chose to lip sync the song without hair because my baldness does not define me. I am bald. This is a fact. I am also a woman and I am strong. I own that. Very much.
Eden, sweetheart, this one is for you. I hope my mom gets to meet Cameron wherever souls may go and I hope they are looking down at us saying “There’s our girls, living their shit, making their mark.”