Jay is still pregnant. 36 weeks and four days. Of course, this is a good thing, but there is no denying that we are now getting impatient. We just want to meet the little man that has continuously kept us on our toes for over 10 weeks now. Jay is feeling very heavy, tired and […]Read More Teenage pregnancy – is it so bad?
We are on the home stretch and it feels amazing. Jay is staying with us and it is so good to have her home. She is miserable, of course. Being nearly 35 weeks pregnant, unable to sleep and not in your own bed will do that to a person. But I am loving having her […]Read More Kittens and the preparation of motherhood
I am lying in bed. It is 8:35am. JC has refused to go to school. He didn’t do a speech for English and now refuses to go to school. I can’t fight him. He is too big and my back has been injured, so I am in immense pain. I am lying in bed, feeling […]Read More Judgement and its cure – 34 weeks and 5 days
By the time I wake up at 7am, my body knows it does not want to get out of bed. Despite a good 10 hours of sleep, it is not ready. I force it to get up. I need to get JC off to school and get on up to the hospital to see Jay. […]Read More Groundhog Day and the imperfections of motherhood – 33 weeks and 3 days
“Sarah….Sarah…” In some recess of my dream, I can hear my name, whispered. “It’s Jay. Is your phone on silent? SARAH.” My eyes snap open. “It’s Jess.” Dee has his phone in front of my face. A quick look at the bedside clock and I see it is 1 am. I grab the phone. “Jay? […]Read More Failure to launch – 33 weeks and 2 days
I’m in pain when I wake up. I have not slept well. I have joined a weight loss program which requires an inordinate amount of exercise and yesterday I did a boxing class. My body has gone into revolt. So much so I cannot even contemplate getting out of bed. It’s 8:00am on Sunday. I […]Read More Learning to face the world again.
It is bucketing down outside. Winter has arrived in full throttle. Jay is at our house for the week and we are both lounging in the family room under blankets with a dog each curled up close to us. JC has refused to go to school, not because of the weather, but because of a […]Read More The “normality” of life – Thursday 3 May – 30 weeks and 5 days
The dogs’ scratching on the laundry door wakes me. I do not want to wake up. I don’t have to go up to the hospital. Jay was discharged two days ago because her cervix had not dilated any further and her tightenings and contractions had calmed down. She is, as far as the doctors are […]Read More The black dog of depression – Sunday 29 April – 30 weeks and 1 day
I haven’t felt much like writing in the last few days. This is because I have been exhausted. The reason is two-fold. Firstly, I ran out of my anti-depressants and my thyroxin and didn’t renew the prescription for a few days. Whilst I am sure that it takes longer than a few days for the […]Read More A surprise baby shower – Sunday 22 April – 29 weeks and 1 day
Today is the first day of second term. JC is up and ready by 6:15am. He wants his iPod with its promise of fan fiction and knows how to get it. “What about a shower?” I ask. “I already showered last night after my hair cut and dad said I can shower tomorrow morning again.” […]Read More One mother of a day – Tuesday 17 April – 28 weeks and 3 days